Saturday, January 31, 2009

A person is a person....

Tonight we watched "Horton hears a Who". It was so good. If you have not seen it or read the book you really should! It is such an amazing Pro life story. The book was written in 1954, 19 years before Roe vs. Wade. In the end, when the Who's are yelling "we are here!" to try to get the other's to hear them. I of course was crying b/c I could just see a little baby inside the womb yelling to his mom who is contemplating ending his life, screaming out, " I am here!" It was a beautiful story and after all a person is a person no matter how small.

I'm back

I have been away this week, mostly not by choice. Our internet went out for no apparent reason and Friday was not a good day. I came back from class and discovered I was bleeding. I panicked. I called my doctor and they had me come in immediately. They did an ultrasound and saw the sac and did not see bleeding behind it so they said things looked normal. I was told it was implantation bleeding. They did not see a heartbeat yet since i am right at 5 weeks. I rested the afternoon as I was emotionally and physically exhausted. Hopefully next week I should be able to see the heartbeat and will feel better.

Monday, January 26, 2009

New Beginnings

Last night, Wade threatened that if I didn't blog soon he would... So here goes... I'm pregnant! We weren't certain if we were going to tell people right away. But church yeterday was about laying down your burdens. We decided that God was going to keep me and this baby safe and we are going to take a step of faith and tell people. And, if something does happen, it wouldn't make it any easier if no one knew. I am due the beginning of October, which if you have read this blog, is the time when Mishael died. We did not know for 2 weeks. God wants to restore October to us, and it will still hurt on October 15th and 16th but October is not going to have to just be a month we will dread every year, it is going to be a celebration of new life. I know most of you who read this are Christians, so if you would, please pray for the safety of this baby and for mine and my families peace. Thank you!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Emotions abound

I have been so emotional lately. If you know me at all I am an emotional person anyway, but lately I could all cry so many times. I hold it in as it happens at very inappropriate times. I found myself getting so emotional while watching the inauguration this morning. I saw all those people there so wanting a man to end all of their troubles. It is something we all have done, put too much faith and trust in a human. And as humans, we all fail, we cannot be all things to all people. I am not saying this has never happened with a new president, it just feels that so many people have feel that the new president is our Saviour. I am that praying for him, that he does seek the one true God for answers to run this country. Wow, that is not where I meant to go but I really found myself so emotional this morning!
Anyway, there have been other times that my emotions have tried to take over and most of the time it is for no real reason! I was making lunch and for no reason I felt like crying. Maybe I should just take some time and cry and get it all out so I don't want to cry over deli meat! Even right now thinking about it, my eyes are welling up!

Sunday, January 18, 2009

My girls found a stray...

...ladybug! Last night we found a ladybug in the house and the girls were fascinated! They played with it and I was finally able to convince them he/she/whatever belonged outside. This morning I wake up to Ainsley with a flashlight shining in Renah's hand saying, "mommy, the ladybug was still outside waiting for us, she must really want to live here!" We did talk about going outside when mommy and daddy are sleeping then Renah went on and on about wanting a pet. I told her we had Miley (our dog) and she said, "that is only one pet!" Then I reminded her about the fish and we counted all the fish, "that is only 6 pets mommy, we need a ladybug too!" All the while the ladybug is "sleeping". They took turns watching it while the other did something. Finally after quite awhile, they took it back outside and made promises to the ladybug to always remember it and not to catch it again so it could be free. I think the wind finally took it away. Unless, they hid it in their room! A little while later, I was getting in the shower and found a spider that came up the drain.Iquickly washed it down the drain so as not to have that become the next ”pet”

Friday, January 16, 2009

I'm kindof pathetic!

Every day I read the blogs I follow and hope for new ones (as do most of you - admit it). The pathetic part for me is there is always a little let down when I get to the end of my list. It is like being 7 and getting to the end of the presents. I enjoyed the ones I opened, but am sad there are no more.
In other news, it is 14 degrees out right now. In some parts of the country that is not such a big deal, BUT I live in southeast Tennessee. That is not supposed to happen! Plus, no snow! If it is to be this cold we should have a few feet of snow. Because that would give me reason not to go anywhere. As some of you know, the south shuts down for snow. I have bread and milk, I am good! What are we supposed to do with bread and milk if we are snowing? Please tell me! I do not want toast and milk in a snowstorm, I want chili and soup and warm comfort foods but bread and milk are a must if snow is called.
Schools were canceled today due to cold weather. Does anyone else find that a bit odd? Last week, schools were closed b/c it was raining so much. Even the schools want snow days so instead they are taking what they can get! I had to get the girls out today because Wade and I still had classes. As I was getting out of bed and Wade told me how cold it was I was wondering what to do for the girls as they do not have really cold weather gear. So I improvised and let them wear jammies under their clothes. We then had to walk about 1/2 mile to meet up with the sitter. They really wanted me to drive but parking is horrible on campus so we would of had to walk further if I drove. It was a good workout b/c we walked super fast! Ok, enough rambling
I guess. I will be on the cooking blog later on posting about dinner! Have a warm and toasty evening!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

It's not whether you win or lose...

Somebody really needs to share this tidbit with the coach of the girls basketball team for whom Ainsley's cheers. She has a very bad attitude and it rubs off on the team. I understand that one can get excited and frustrated but especially at this age, the best lesson that can be taught is to have a good attitude. The other team's coach tonight was just as bad except that we know him and he is a member in a prominent church. That is worse! I just know that if my child were on the basketball team I would really have a problem with that kind of attitude being displayed by the adults in my child's life.

It's my 100th post!

Holy cow, 100 posts - I can't believe it! I wish I had something profound to say but not so much. Classes went well yesterday but I was exhausted! I only have one class on Tues/Thurs so i ook Ainsley to school this morning then went to the gym. I came home and did the Thursday chores from my list I am trying so diligently to keep up with. Now, I want a nap and have class in about an hour. Oh well, I will get used to it! Ainsley has a game tonight so I have dinner in the crock pot. I may put this meal on the cooking blog. I have made it several times but it is so quick and easy. Ok, I convinced myself. I am going over there now to blog about it. If you want a quick, easy and yummy dinner come over here to see!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009


My classes start back tomorrow. I know I can't be on Christmas vacation forever, it was nice not doing much of anything for awhile. My first class is with my hubby, we are taking German culture together. I normally would not take a class with him as he is one of those people who take little notes and study for about 1/2 hour and do really well! But since I lived in Germany for 5 years that maybe I would have a little leg up on him! I may have to eat those words though - lol!
I am really working on my time management skills. I have to learn that even 20 minutes is enough time to make a dent in a chore. I worked on a chore list for myself and the girls. They have to make their bed, sweep or dishes and clean their room. I just have to work on consistency. Here's hoping! I am going to get ready for bed and try and get to sleep before 2 am! Goodnight and have a good day.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Oh my aching back...

Wade and I moved the bedroom around a bit today. I am very happy with the results but man it was hard work! When Wade was in Iraq the last time, we got a good tax return so I went and bought us a new bedroom suite. We had never had one - we had a bed frame and a dresser I bought at a yard sale - it was a sad sight.
Anyway, I went to a furniture store and found a set that was within our budget and put it on layaway. We had the money but was about to move so I wanted it delivered to the new place. When I went to pay it out, I couldn't remember what it looked like so I asked to see it. It was then on clearance and i saw a set that i really feel in love with. It was about $600 more and I couldn't afford the extra. So I told myself to be grateful that we had a bedroom suite finally.
A few days later, I received a phone call from the manager at the furniture store. There had been a flood at the warehouse when they kept the layaway furniture and my bedroom suite was ruined and since it was on clearance, there were no more. He then said, "One of the saleswomen told me you had your eye on another set but you couldn't afford it. Would it be ok if we upgraded your set to the one your liked better?"
I was so amazed at that blessing from God. He cared enough about my little want and gave me the nicer bedroom set. And I do love this set but since I bought it in Texas - it is Texas sized! We have a king size bed and huge furniture and have yet to have a bedroom that this set really fits in!
So I cleaned all day, mostly in my bedroom and i have a few more things to do tomorrow to get ready for classes on Wednesday. I really want to be on top of the house work before classes begin. When I started in the fall I worked until the day before classes began and the house was a wreck going into classes. I was able to do quite a bit of cleaning but when I lost my son, I wasn't able to keep up with the house I did clean up but just wanted to take the time to rest and grieve. Now I do need to get a schedule going. This semester isn't going to be easy for me in the fact that march is coming. As much as I want to avoid it, March 23 will be here soon and I will have to deal with that. I have been able to take some time and just feel the pain in the past few weeks. I know it has helped just to take a few minutes to myself and feel the pain and cry. I can try to push it away but that will not really help me.
I am trying to get excited about my classes. I am taking pottery so that should be fun. I am just hoping that I don't have things due the entire semester like last time. Well, I hope you are having a good night - I am going to bed!

Sunday, January 11, 2009


For a New Year's Resolution, Wade wanted to try a new recipe a week. So we started a new blog about our new recipes. This is it. It was really good. So I am working on finding new things to try. I found quite a few.
I enjoy cooking and have been cooking for quite some time. My mom was not the best cook but did not realize it ( which is worse than someone who can't cook and knows it!) lol! We used to eat out on holidays until I was about 14, I decided we were going to have a home cooked meal and I was going to do it! After that, I started cooking more during the week. My mom thought I was just being helpful, it was really about survival!
The good thing that came out of it, was I learned to experiment in the kitchen and got pretty good at cooking at least my husband thinks so! So try the new recipe if you want and let us know what you think! Have a good day!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Bad Habits

It is too early in the new year to have such bad habits I seem to be developing! I am becoming seriously addicted to coffee, blogs, and sleeping! The worst part? I am in no hurry to fix it I am completely happy with these bad habits! Anyone else have bad habits they are fine with and want to keep?

Monday, January 5, 2009

Not much

That is what we have been doing lately. We have been watching lots of movies, staying up late, and sleeping lots. Part of me feels really lazy for doing so and the other part doesn't care. I know we have needed this rest since this past semester. I am not looking forward to this semester especially March. It is going to be hard, I am still praying for strength.
We did make it to the gym today. I did some cardio, weight training and the steam room. I am starting to get tired though, so i am going to get the girls to bed and go to bed myself. I hope you are having a good day.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy 2009!

I am not going to do a year in review. It was a year of ups and downs. The downs were the worst ever but I am remembering the ups as well. Here are some pictures of our New Years celebrations. We made our own hats and confetti!