Saturday, August 30, 2008

I have no title

Sorry, I really can't think of a title for the blog! Is it really almost September? This has been a big month! I turned 30, I quit my job to become a full time student, and my baby started kindergarten! It has been crazy. So far my classes are going pretty well, my favorite is my counseling class. I am taking that class as an elective since I am getting my degree in education.
The only reason I am getting the education degree is that I am so close to finishing that one, my masters will be in counseling. One of my professors said something in class that struck me. She said, that when you know you are in the field you are supposed to be in it will not feel like work. Even the classes won't feel like drudgery. Right now that is how I feel about my education courses - drudgery! I am doing it because it is the way I feel I should go to make things easier for me but I love my counseling course. I have always loved the psychology classes I took. I wish I had listened to that voice inside when I was younger but at least I realized before I started teaching. I feel that one should not teach if it is not in their heart. The kids will know!
Ok, off my soap box! Right now I am enjoying a little bit of me time. My hubby and girls are napping and I am watching a Hallmark movie and blogging - jealous? Hubby just got up and made it all the way to the chair and fell back asleep! So I am going to stop this for today and I hope you all have a wonderful Labor Day!

Friday, August 22, 2008


That is something I am working on with God. It was a difficult decision to quit my job and become a full time student because as most of you know, my husband too is a full time student. So now here we are, two full time students with two small children who grow out of clothes and shoes quickly and another one on the way with no real income! But I feel God has been preparing me. Recently, I have "stumbled " across blogs of people trusting God through horrible circumstances and He never let them fall. Sunday night, I heard a minister share his experiences of miracles even witnessing his own daughter come back to life. I am not dumb enough to consider all of this a coincidence, I know God is showing me He is going to take care of us and I am daily ignoring my flesh and looking to God to show me how He is going to take care of us.

I once told Wade I know God was testing me when I had to go through the birth of our first child by myself. I have always felt like I failed that test horribly! I couldn't understand why a loving caring God would allow that. I know there are so many worse things that could have happened to us, but that was very difficult for me at the time. I do feel so much stronger than I did then but I don't want to feel like I have failed the test we are going through now! So if you think about it, pray for my family as we hit some trials. Pray that we will not look to our surroundings for our answers but to our Lord. He can make every dollar stretch and every tank of gas last longer than it should. I know He has opened this door for us and will not let us fall.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

College days

My first few days of classes have gone pretty well. I still need to buy most of my books but they are soooo expensive! Ainsley had her first day of kindergarten with all the kids. She was nervous with all the new kids there. She was so brave though, she looked like she wanted to cry but she didn't. It nearly broke my heart. Renah did not want to leave. She kept saying, "I want to stay in kindergarten!" I felt so bad for her! So I am trying to think of fun, free things to do with Renah in between classes. I really want her with me but I feel bad she doesn't have anything to do such as a preschool. I will try and keep up with this as much as I can but the problem I have at the moment is that Wade and I have to share the computer until we can get one for me as well. This should be interesting! Have a great day!

Monday, August 18, 2008

Nothing much going on

Wow, this may top the charts at most boring blog ever! Then why write? you may ask, I too am bored. I have gone through my list of daily blogs and I'm done. Registration is going on right now and b/c tomorrow is my last day I am answering phones. I am really suprised the phone is not ringing off the hook. So what do you do when you are bored. If I were home I would be able to clean my oh so messy house.
I didn't do anything this weekend b/c I worked all day Saturday for new student orientation. I got home and took a two hour nap, then spent the evening with my girls and went back to bed as soon as I could. Sunday we went to church, came home and took a nap and went back to church. I put a load of laundry on before I went to bed last night because I had nothing to wear today. So I will go home after work and probably take another nap!
Classes begin on Wednesday and I am really nervous. I am too old for this! On one hand it may be easier I won't be distracted by boys! So if you think about it this week, send up a prayer for me as we begin this new schedule. It will be a tough adjustment but hopefully worth it in the end!

Friday, August 15, 2008

Her first day

I have got to start putting pictures up and maybe when (if ) I get my own computer I will be able to. Today was Ainsley "phase- in" day for kindergarten. I made it through without her seeing me cry but 2 steps out the door and I lost it! She was excited but a little nervous. While I was fixing her hair she said, "Mommy, I am not going to know what to do at school" I told her that everyone was new and would all learn together. She was satified with that answer. I am so proud of her but I wish we didn't have to do this yet! Wasn't it last week she learned to walk? Where has the time with my baby gone? I had better stop or will start bawling all over again. I just pray her day was good!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

The Trip

I have been back at work for about 4 days now but have been really busy with school about to start. The phonecalls are endless! We had a good weekend but I really don't like sleeping outside! I enjoy the cooking out(ok, my husband cooking out), the fires, and the other things that go with it but I hate hate hate sleeping outside! Mostly because I am a big scaredy cat and jump at every scuffle sound and am sure there is a large bear, any other wild animal, or a crazy person outside my tent ready to strike!

We stayed as close as possible to the bathroom because we have 2 little girls who have to pee every 10 minutes and if they mention it, then I have to go as well! And we wanted to be close enough to be able to watch the girls go on their own because it makes them feel like big girls. There was a family bathroom that only had the one stall so I felt ok letting them go in there by themselves.

The first night we had our nice big air mattress and we were ready for bed. But a couple of hours into the night, Wade moved and was catipulted into him. Our feet we several inches above our heads and I couldn't get back to my side of the bed. I would almost get comfotable again and Wade would move and again I would be thrown over on him. At one point when that happened I was comfortable but Wade said his neck was at a weird angle so I had to move. Ainsley woke up at about 3 to go to the bathroom and I made Wade take her because again I am a big scaredy cat then realized I too had to go. So I made Wade stand outside the tent to wait for me! We took the air mattress back to the bathroom to blow it up again (which did not stay up!)
We struggled for the next few hours to sleep and finally as the sun was coming up i moved to the end of the matress and laid across Wade's feet. That acually seemed to even things out a bit and we were able to sleep for a couple of hours. We had 2 birthday parties we had already commited to on Saturday so we headed down the mountain to sleepily go but a present and get to the party. Can you guess what else we bought? Yep! A brand new air mattress! Which did work much better.

Renah is like me - terrified of bugs! I was trying so hard to be brave but Renah didn't care she screamed every time she saw a cricket or a "recipie" (that is what she called the centipede). Ainsley was so great she would step on them or take them away from us. Such the brave girl! All in all it was a relaxing weekend but I am really trying to convince the girls that hotels are really THE vacation spot! Well, I have my first OB appt in a few minutes so I am going to get my things together. have a good day!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Long weekend

I am taking a few days off to rest a bit before beging classes so I get a 5 day weekend! Woo Hoo! We are going camping. Now, if you know me, you know I am not an outdoorsy girl at all! But Wade and the girls love it so I thought we could try it again. It actually shouldn't be too bad, the weather will be in the 80's all weekend, Wade will do the cooking b/c I don't cook over open flames, and we will be beside the lake with a beach area the girls love to play in. So we will have a few days of no phone, internet, tv ( can I really make it?), just reading and relaxing. Hopefully no wild animals! Talk to you next week!

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

I did it

Well, after kicking, screaming, pouting, denial, anger and all those other steps I realized there is no turning back. I turned 30 today. This is a big one and I am nervous. Here I am 30, pregnant, and going back to school full time - crazy right? I have been reflecting over the last 10 years. In my 20's so many things happened, I met Wade, he joined the army, we got married, we moved to Italy, I had my first and second child, we lived in 10 different houses, we got out of the army, and the list goes on and on. I finished my 20's with a 5 year old, a 3 year old and one on the way. I will finish my 30's with a 15 year old, 13 year old and 9 year old. That is insane!
I was also thinking about my brother through my reflecting. My brother was 11 years older than me and when he tuned 30, I let him have it. I made a copy of his key and decorated his house in gravestones and black balloons. I decorated his car, and made him a cake shaped like a gravestone saying "RIP to Glen's childhood." It was a blast and he told me one day he would return the favor. He had a heart attack and died at the age of 37. He left behind 4 kids. Today, I miss him like I never have before because I know no matter how far apart we would have been, he would have done something crazy to me today.
But I am trying not to let this big birthday get me down and enjoy what the next 10 years will bring. So I hope you all have had a great day and have a great week!